It sucks. Legitimately it's the worst feeling in the world because someone that mattered to you let you down. It's the only reason you'd be broken to the core. You may be broken but you're still holding yourself together. I can only speak to my experience- and when I'm hurting I turn to God. All of my ability with tarot and my intuition takes a back seat, because I know everything I am comes from Him. When I'm uneasy about anything that I can't control I go into distraction mode- I pray, play inspirational music on the piano, I escape in a book, etc. Whatever makes me feel better and allows me to breathe again. It's not easy, it's simply a choice to turn your back on the pain instead of letting it consume you.
It's a sign of strength for those that see past their destruction to seek help. I'm ever so thankful that people turn to me- I'm not a doctor. I'm not a therapist. I'm simply a single mom that's felt pain, have conquered it, and have this special connection to God that allows me to help others. I can't imagine God giving this gift to anyone without the intention of them offering help to others.
My point- there's a beautiful future for all us broken folks. Our bodies have this amazing ability to heal our hearts and souls. Things always get better. There's forgiveness, there's new beginnings, there's a 2nd chance at love and there's JOY to be found after every storm whether you're broken or have broken. ☺️🙏🏽❤️