SORRY IT's BEEN A WHILE, I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING

Although the past few weeks have been a challenge, I believe now more than ever that whatever this is happening with me is truly a gift. I am sorry I haven't been posting lately on my blog here. I have tried to stay connected to the hundreds (thank you!) of friends on Facebook kind enough to friend me though. I've just been trying to sort myself out. I do want to share this journey with everyone so they can understand what it is I do.

At the end of November I wrote about a 'Hermit', a close friend of mine. I practically harassed her for days to take a break from work, so strongly I had to catch myself. I didn't want her to think I was crazy. I told myself, and later her, to not worry because she would take a break soon, she would take it willingly or something would force her hand. I just was worried about her well being. Nothing more. But something told me she'd get the rest she desperately needed soon, so I dropped it.

This all took place a few days before her family member passed. A few days. That's the pattern with these feelings I get. A few days is all I get to make someone understand these sensations/premonitions. After her family member passed she had asked why I didn't see this particular accident. She sees me as clairvoyant. Truth is- I don't 'see' anything. I feel how someone needs to stay in the light & away from darkness. I can't foresee or 'sense' death or darkness. I don't do death. I can only guide you on your path to your light. When I told her to take some time off and spend time with her family, I had zero thought that a death would be the reason she took time off. Zero. If I had, I would have told her. This 'thing' just doesn't operate that way. At the end of the day I can only suggest the path to take. I felt horrible for her. Being an empath I felt her despair... It sucked.

This would have hit me much harder but another interesting turn of events took place before my friend's death in the family. I became friends with a gentleman on Facebook (there are NO coincidences). Strangely enough God had asked me to check on him, to contact him. (Who am I to say, "Are you crazy God? He doesn't know me!") ... But I checked on him. Well he had posted a question about 'freewill' and after some thought I gave him my reason on why God allowed it. Reality is we all have our own path to take, not right or wrong- just our own. My best friend, a nurse reminded me that she struggles with the same feelings of "did I do enough?". All she can do is recommend a health plan- but freewill is everyones' right. I may offer guidance, but ultimately you must choose the path you must take.

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-La Jibarita