True story. The greatest feeling is being able to help someone with this gift through tarot. Giving folks hope & JOY is a huge reward for me. I love getting feedback of how accurate their reading was and how it helped them by being prepared for what's to come. This part of my gift I truly love.
However there is a different aspect to this gift that impacts my close friends & family. Not only do I have a gift for tarot, I'm able to make predictions through my intuition for those I'm emotionally connected with in my life. Imagine a long string that's connected from you to your loved ones and you're able to feel a big event coming, their emotions, & their struggles. This is more difficult to handle than just a regular tarot card reading that is simply meant to guide folks to their light. Tarot is a safe place for me... It's just light & does no harm. However with my family & friends I have an internal 'warning system'. Sometimes it's overwhelming. I know it's a blessing from God but it can also be a challenge for me because I don't discuss THIS with a lot of family, surprisingly despite me starting a business. I'm still uncomfortable with it all. Believe it or not I'm an introvert. Imagine having a feeling of dread and not being able to know anything but who it'll impact and you can't see what will happen you can only feel something wrong with a short timer on it. Usually when a friend comes to me with a problem I can use my intuition to guide them and I'll have a heads up to what may happen and we can avoid it... However, when the issue is unknown - I'm literally in the dark knowing something is going to rock them to the core & I'm helpless to stop it. Tarot helps even me trying to figure out these feelings, but there's too many influencers that sometimes it still won't give us much answers just general info. It's not a comforting feeling. This feeling isn't about the weather and getting rained on, it's usually life changing. Right now I'm in the dark about a close family member and it's literally killing me. I've been pulling in all my favors with God and praying I'm wrong this once- but I know in my heart I won't be. I just hope I've prepared my family enough. Sometimes just a heads up can change things for the better. This instance made me remember when I was in college visiting my family in PR. I come from a divorced family & I am not close with a lot of my Aunts & Uncles. This one time I had a feeling & asked to see someone that I hadn't even talked to since my childhood. I had never been to her home, and I didn't know at the time that she was far away- but my father took me. That day I saved her life. So I don't doubt that whatever THIS is is a gift and a blessing. It's just not always easy, even when things work out.
I shared my concerns with my father yesterday and he didn't doubt me at all -just thanked me.
I hate this aspect, but sometimes life just has to happen- that's the hardest lesson. He mentioned my Abuela (Gramma) has my gift too....😑... What?! Thanks dad. I've only been struggling with this my whole life and only now making sense of it!😂 Don't ya love family?!!!
I truly thank you all for the prayers!